Tuesday, September 16, 2014

'I went to brush something off my cheek and realized it was the floor'

I heard that and thought it was funny.  I really don't drink like that anymore and haven't for ages. There was a time that could have been true for me.  'Dude, where's my car' is also something that can describe my [anti]glory days.

I realized late in life that my mom was a party animal! Oh, she would drop tidbits here and there but I never really put it together.  She'd leave these little bits of information without fanfare or detail.  There was a Japanese card game, we had a deck of those little colorful cardboard cards. She said she would play this game as a gambling and drinking game after work with her friends. I wish I would have learned to play that game or even to remember the name.  I have many regrets like that. Mom was wonderful and she knew so much but I didn't tap into that, I didn't take advantage of that, I didn't make her feel special enough to be interested in those things. I regret it, i'm crying now.